Yom HaZikaron 5778
This is an updated version of my Yom HaZikaron remarks from last May.
Michael Simon
Yom HaZikaron Ceremony
April 18, 2018
My
remarks tonight are in memory of Marla Bennett, Ben Blutstein, and the other
victims of the bombing at Hebrew University in 2002, and of Yotam Gilboa.
I’ll be
sharing a commentary on the poem, The
Diameter of the Bomb, by Yehuda Amichai.
The full poem, first in English, then in Hebrew
(read by Simcha Masala)
The
diameter of the bomb was thirty centimeters
and
the diameter of its effective
range
– about seven meters.
And
in it four dead and eleven wounded.
And
around them in a greater circle
of
pain and time are scattered
two
hospitals and one cemetery.
But
the young woman who was
buried
where she came from
over
a hundred kilometres away
enlarges
the circle greatly.
And
the lone man who weeps over her death
in a
far corner of a distant country
includes
the whole world in the circle.
And I
won’t even mention the crying of orphans
that
reaches up to the throne of God and
beyond,
making a circle with no end and no God.
Then,
back to English:
The
diameter of the bomb was thirty centimeters
I don’t know, exactly, what the
diameter of the bomb was, and I don’t really care. The bomb was placed in a
backpack and left, strategically, on a table under a newspaper in Café Sinatra
at Hebrew University.
and
the diameter of its effective
Very effective. The open
newspaper made it look like someone was just saving the table, had put the
backpack there for a moment while they went, like the couple of hundred other
people inside the air-conditioned café on that sweltering last day of July in
2002, to grab schnitzel or some other quick lunch before the final exams of the
summer session.
range
– about seven meters.
The bomb went off at 1:31 pm. 36
hours later, I talked my way past the guards watching over what was now a crime
scene and a makeshift memorial site. I sat on the floor of Café Sinatra,
wondering exactly where Marla and Ben and Jamie had been sitting before hell
intruded. 36 hours later, the tables and chairs and bodies and blood and nails
and spikes and flesh and hair and glass and everything else imaginable and
unimaginable had been swept up and cleaned. Much of the structure remained intact. But – not the ceiling. Panels had fallen or
had been blown off, wires exposed. The guts of the building had been ripped
open.
And in
it four dead and eleven wounded.
In Café Sinatra, nine dead and 85
wounded. Nine dead. Ben Blutstein. Marla Bennett. Revital Barashi. David Gritz. David Diego Ladowski. Janis
Coulter. Dina Carter. Levina Shapira. Daphna Spruch. The 85 wounded included our friend, Jamie
Harris-Gershon.
And
around them in a greater circle
A greater circle. The people –
random, amazing people – who carried the dead and the wounded into the plaza
outside the café’, organizing triage for those who could be helped and
maintaining whatever dignity could be held for those who were already dead.
A greater circle. Over 3000
people killed and more than 25,000 wounded by Palestinian terror attacks in
Israel since 1948.
A greater circle that includes Yotam Gilboa. I was Yotam’s madrich on Nesiya in Israel during the summer of
2002, the summer when I first became a Jewish educator. The summer when Marla was
killed. The day after the Hebrew University bombing, when I said goodbye to my
group of chanichim (campers), Yotam –
a tough kibbutznik who had little patience
for me throughout that summer, hugged me tightly with tears in his eyes that
said, “Now you’re one of us.” Four summers later, on July 21, 2006, Yotam was
killed in southern Lebanon while fighting as part of an elite combat unit
against Hezbollah terrorists. He was 21 years old.
Yotam is one of more than 20,000
Israeli soldiers who have been killed in combat. A toll that continue to rise.
of
pain and time are scattered
Thousands of Palestinian
casualties of war and violence related to this conflict. A toll that continue
to rise.
two
hospitals and one cemetery.
Hadassah Hospital – Ein
Kerem: Where I went, hours after the
bombing, to try to find out if the woman lying in a coma, unable to be
identified, was Marla. I went to her bedside, looked at a person with features
swollen so much she was virtually unrecognizable. Will she survive? I asked the
nurse. “It doesn’t look good.” I didn’t think it was Marla, but wasn’t sure. They
brought me out of the room, over to a drawer that held her belongings. A ring. A
watch. This wasn’t Marla. Marla, it turned out, had died instantly. This woman,
Revital Barashi, would succumb to her injuries a few days later.
Hadassah Hospital – Har HaTzofim
(Hebrew U.): Where I went, right after going to the site of the café, and found
my way into the room where Jamie lay recovering from her horrendous injuries. She
had not yet been told that her friends and lunch companions, Marla and Ben, were
both dead. And I couldn’t tell her. All
I could say was, “I love you, Jamie,” and wished her the most intense refuah shleima, full and speedy recovery, that I could
muster.
The cemetery is in San Diego,
where Marla was born. Where she is
buried now, next to ancestors long dead, her own arrival far too early, far too
soon.
But
the young woman who was
Marla was born and raised in San
Diego, went to UC Berkeley, and studied in Israel at Hebrew U. during her
junior year and then at Pardes starting in September 2000. She arrived when the
elusive dream of peace looked like it might actually be achieved. Instead, the
2nd Intifada erupted that fall.
Marla loved Jerusalem. Three
months before the bombing she wrote, “I’ve been living in Israel for over a
year and a half now, and my favorite thing to do here is to go to the grocery
store. I know – not the most exciting response from someone living in Jerusalem
these days. But going grocery shopping here…means that I live here. I am not a
tourist; I deal with Israel and all of its complexities, confusion, joy, and
pain every single day. And I love it.”
On the last Shabbat of July 2002,
Marla and I went for a walk in our beloved Yerushalayim. On our walk, Marla
pointed at houses to show me the kind of place where she’d like us to live someday.
We walked through a playground filled with small children. We held hands,
beaming in joyful anticipation of hundreds of Shabbat walks – and so much more
– that we imagined lying ahead of us in our future.
Marla also wrote in spring 2002:
“As I look ahead to the next year and a half that I will spend in Israel, I
feel excited, worried, but more than anything else, lucky…. Stimulation abounds
in Jerusalem…. There is no other place in the world where I would rather be
right now.”
buried
where she came from
At the airport, before I accompanied
Marla’s body on its journey home to her family in San Diego, I was handed a bag
with soil from Eretz Yisrael, to place in her grave. Which I did.
over
a hundred kilometres away
Thousands of miles away, San
Diego can feel a million miles away from Israel. Though on the day of Marla’s
funeral, people came from thousands of miles away, from as far away as Israel, and
collapsed that distance, at least for a moment.
enlarges
the circle greatly.
The Talmud tells us that the
murder of one person destroys an entire universe. Marla was preparing to be a
teacher of Torah, with dreams of one day heading a school. How many students –
how many worlds – would Marla have touched and changed indelibly? Dozens,
hundreds, thousands?
At least 20 children have been
named for Marla in the years since she was killed. Memorials and scholarships
and days of service exist to honor her memory. People like me try to honor her
memory in words and deeds.
And
the lone man who weeps over her death
The lone man who weeps, and cries
out, for hours and days and months and even years. Until the weeping doesn’t
quite stop, but becomes part of who he is, and he moves forward, because he doesn’t
know for sure what she would have wanted, but he believes that she would have
wanted him to live.
The story of how I met Marla, and
where I lost Marla, takes place in Jerusalem. And so does the story of how I
met Claire, four years nearly to the
day after Marla was killed, a week after Yotam was killed, and about thirty
feet from the very spot where I had met Marla. I met Claire Sufrin in Jerusalem
twelve years ago, and we fell in love, got married, and then had Jacob, and then
Ethan, and here we are. Hineinu.
in a
far corner of a distant country
Jerusalem. Tel Aviv. Petach Tikva.
Beersheva. Haifa. Netanya. Sderot. The list goes on, and on.
includes
the whole world in the circle.
San Bernardino. Orlando.
Brussels. Paris. New York City. Istanbul. The list goes on, and on.
And I
won’t even mention the crying of orphans
that
reaches up to the throne of God and
beyond,
making a circle with no end and no God.
(pause)
And yet I continue to say, Baruch
Hashem. Blessed is the Creator.
Blessed is the Creator for creating
this beautiful, amazing, joyful, and, yes, horrifying and painful world.
Blessed is the Creator for
creating Marla, though she was ripped away from us so horribly.
Blessed is the Creator for
creating me, and Claire, and Jacob and Ethan.
And each of you. All of us.
Blessed is the Creator, for
giving us the ability to cry, to laugh, and, sometimes, to make peace.